Well, to be honest, I don't think there should really be an excuse as to why someone can't diet, because really, anyone can diet. But the reason why I haven't had the motivation to do so is because I've been so overworked with One-Act Play. I hate it!!! The other actors suck and they're making such a shithole out of a great play.
Food from yesterday: Nothing for breakfast, but I had lunch at school which was 3 beef tacos in corn tortillas along with some diced peaches and Spanish rice with pinto beans. Dinner was 1 plate of mom's fettuccine Alfredo with shrimp and ground chicken.
Today's food: 2 grilled cheese sandwiches for breakfast; a slice of turkey, some mashed potatoes, broccoli with cheese, and a bread roll for lunch; dinner was ribs, some weird soup, and rice. I have no idea what mom plans to cook.
It's not that I'm eating bad or in large portions, I'm just not exercising. Hopefully I'll still lose a pound or two this week.
I'd love to pursue acting, but, let's face it, that's more impossible than my musical dreams. lol
I think I just want to become the math teacher I wanted to be before. =/
Food for today... breakfast was from school, an un-buttered biscuit with some weird ham and egg patty thing. For lunch I had a breaded chicken sandwich with lettuce and tomato with tator tots and vanilla pudding on the side. Dinner was pancit with shrimp and boiled bacon. I had some snacks like 2 tamarino pulp packets which are like 50 calories each as well as 2 steak fingers.
By the way, I weight 240 lb currently. I didn't gain any major weight.
The One-Act Play director is getting on our case. We have a morning practice tomorrow at 7:30 a.m. and we don't even compete until like... March. What the Hell?
Band is going so awesome! I'm loving all the pieces they give us this year. There's not one that I wouldn't want to play. Also, Miss Meza said she would take time off every week to help me learn the audition pieces! It's going to be so great and so fun learning them!
Tomorrow I'll start enforcing my diet + exercise again. But you have to enforce it on me, too...
I just need to know that I can do it.
I love music and it's my life. There is no way that I want to do anything else. I know this. I know that music is it. And whatever job it is, conducting, performing, or teaching... I want music to be the rest of my life just like it is my life now.
I just need to know that it's possible.
I know that I can go to any cheap school that accepts any person but I don't want that to be me. I want to go to a good school so I can get a good job in a big city like San Antonio, Austin, or even Dallas/Forth Worth.
I just need to know I stand a chance.
I want to practice and get better and make sure it's no in vain. I don't want to make an effort and then come to realize I still don't compare to those rich kids with private teacher being accepted into North Texas. I'll never make it into North Texas now, but I want to know that if I practice enough and try hard enough that I have even the smallest chance.
I just need to know that it'll happen as long as it's in my heart.
I just need someone to tell me that I can do it.
I totally suck at that game!
UGH I'm so nervous for tomorrow. It's Solo & Ensemble. I'm performing with the following groups:
I'm totally nervous about my flute solo! I really want to get a I...
Breakfast: 1/2 cup sinangag, 2 small dry fishes, 1/4 cup scrambled egg
Lunch (school): 2 small egg and potato tacos, 1 oz. Bugles, 1 oatmeal cream pie
Dinner: 1 cup rice, 3 large spoonfuls of picadillo (giniling with potato)
Didn't exercise. =/ UGH.
It's like fish and poultry day! lol
I really want a class ring... but it's so expensive! OH and tomorrow I get fitted for my letterman jacket.
Breakfast (school): 2 sunny-side-up eggs, 1/2 cup rice
Lunch (school): 1/2 cup mashed potatoes, 1/4 cup green beans, 1 bread roll, 2 baked fish flanks
Dinner: 1 cup fettuccine with Alfredo and broccoli, 2 fishes from Long John Silver's, 1 chicken from Long John Silver's
Snack: 3 cookies
Exercise: 200 calories on DDR
Oh! And this is interesting.